Sunday, July 29, 2012

Come and Knock on my Door.....

Today we ripped off a blogger named Metalmom from the blog I Don't Want to Hear It. We will do the fifty questions in two parts. She explains that she got it from Robin from the blog Libra GirlBut, it was probably stolen there as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Take the time to comment on other player's posts. It's a great way to make new friends! Link back to us at Sunday Stealing! 

Sunday Stealing: The Too Tired to Think Meme, Part 2

26. What type of errands do you like running?
The kind that are quick and done easily.  Or better yet - that involve me getting stuff.  I love stuff.  :) 

27. Have you ever eaten snow?
Have you ever peed in a pool?
28. What color are your bedsheets?
Pretty blue.  Not obsessive about blue blue, but a really nice blue.  And they're soft.  I've become a bed sheet snob.  I'll admit it.  No 250 count in my house..
29. What’s your favorite flower?
Peonies.  Love the way they smell... And look!
30. Do you do ballet?
Can you do the can-can?  Seriously?  I'm 46.  There is NO ballet happening in my house.  As a matter of fact I was kicked out of Kathy Corrigan's ballet class because I couldn't do a split.  So there.  Piss off Kathy Corrigan.  I still can't do one. 
31. Do you listen to classical music?
I'll listen to anything except hard core rap.  I love some good music :)

32. What is the first TV Theme song that pops in your head?
Read the post title.. :)
33. Do you watch Sponge Bob?
Only if forced.  Not a huge fan - it's funny, but I like my humor geared more toward my age.  30.  LOL
34. What temperature is it outside right now?
it's called "NOT f'ing hot".. 77 right now.  Comfortable.  Comfortable at night.  That's the most important. 
35. Do people consider you smart?
I was told by my former supervisor that I was smarter than her, and probably most of the people that I worked with.  I didn't think that was really a good "supervisory" thing to say, but I didn't tell her - she wouldn't get it. 
36. How many piercing do you have?
My ears are pierced 3x each.  First one when I was 12 - with a needle and thread, and I had to pull the thread back and forth.  2nd time was a birthday gift from some friends - with a gun at a Claire's or something like that.  3rd my friend's sister did when she was tripping.  Yeah.  I let them close up.  They were a little "off".. lol
37. Are you signed on [to] AIM?
Does anyone use that any more?
38. Have you ever tried gluing your fingers together?
Like in 3rd grade..
39. How do you feel about your family?
Baaaaaaaaaaahahahahahahahahaha!!  I think that family is not always defined by genetics.  Sometimes those ones aren't
40. Do you have an iPod?
I have an iPod, iPad (winged, for my protection) and an iPhone.  What's your point?  Don't judge my techno-skills.
41. What time do you go to bed?
Usually 10-10:30.  Last night? After 3.  Jesus I'm getting too old for this crap!
42. What CD is currently in your CD player?
Really?  REALLY??  I don't know.  I have a 5 cd changer in my car - and 2 or 3 are still stuck in there.  I can't get them out.  Word to the wise?  Don't EVER put a home-made CD with a label on it into a really expensive car stereo.  It'll cost you a buttload to fix and its cheaper to pull the radio fuse out.  Every night.  Or the battery goes dead.  Yeah.  Glad you asked now?
43. What movie do you know every line to?
Princess Bride!!!
44. What is your favorite salad dressing?
My own raspberry vinaigrette.  It's darn-tootin delightful!
45. What do you want for Christmas this year?
Meh... Not sure.  Usually I have to buy whatever I want for myself, so nothing, I guess..
46. What family member/friend lives the farthest from you? Where?
Stella - San Diego.  :(
47. Do you like hugs?
Who doesn't?  That's dumb..
48. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
Um.  Butterflies?  Try NEVER.  Oh wait, there was that one time we were in the butterfly garden?  LOL  It's been so long I have no idea..
49. What’s the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name?
My name is so damn easy nobody screws it up.
50. Last person you hugged?
My son - about 10 min. ago :)

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Best quote I've seen in ages...

Not sure where it originated from, but a friend posted it on Facebook.

"There are exactly ZERO good reasons why Americans should be able to purchase an assault weapon with ease but not mental health coverage."

All Memes... All the time...

Saturday 9: I Saw the Light

1. Has something ever made you "see the light"?
I've seen Springsteen live over 20 times, if that hasn't make me be "Blinded by the Light" nothing will.  :)
2. Do you believe you have any control over your luck?
Luck, schmuck.  I believe in karma. 
3. What is something you have had difficulty rising above?
The clouds lately - my jetpack just doesn't work like it used to..
4. Would you want to be rich?
Ahhhhhhh rich..... I was rich once.  I miss when I was rich....   I'd like to have enough to not worry about the bills, be able to buy something without not paying a bill because of it, and be comfortable.  That's not asking for much, is it?
5. Tell us about a current or old song that helps you "face the world."
Right now this is running through my head...
6. Has any dream of yours come true?
oh Honey, I'm Livin' the Dream.  Every day.  :)
7. What would you change if you became "the king or queen" of your country?
Make new rules.  LOL
8. How do you feel about LGBT rights? (If you need to look up LGBT, then you probably need to learn more.)
That's as stupid as asking someone how they feel about civil rights.  It's all the same, isn't it?  Everyone - regardless of who they love (well, except if they're some of those NAMBLA freaks) should have the same rights.  It's the law.  Duh. 
9. Have you ever been disappointed in yourself?
I hang my head in shame.  Or is it because I'm giggling...  I've said and done some things that I shouldn't - but haven't we all?  But to say I'm disappointed in myself?  That's just going too far.  Too far dammit. 

Saturday, July 14, 2012

He made my kid cry...

Saturday 9: Don't Talk to Strangers <--- click here to play along :)

1. Has talking to a stranger ever caused you a problem?
Isn't everyone a stranger at first?  Don't be so judgmental about strangers.  Sometimes they turn out to be nice people.  Sometimes they turn out to be weirdos with a fetish for mirrors and women's clothing.  But by the time you find that out - they're no longer strangers, they're just strange.  

2. Have you ever gloated or wanted to brag over success?
My boobs are bigger than yours.  How's that?  Although, soon?  They'll be smaller.  And perkier.  I'm a gonna do it.   Chop chop.  Goodbye.  You ARE the weakest link..

3. What do enjoy most about your life?
Lately, that I'm in Michigan and it's relatively peaceful here.  I enjoy my ride to work, grateful to have a job (although it makes me crazy), have great friends, and the ability to laugh at myself.  And others.  Sometimes.  When they're not looking. 

4. Do you ever over think a situation in your life?
Have you READ my blog????

5. Tell us about your best friend.
I have a few - all BFF's for different reasons, and different capacities in my life.  But the one thing they all have in common?  They're the kind that won't bail me out of jail because they're sitting next to me saying "only you... Kathy.  Only you..."

6. How important is intelligence when picking (or having picked) a mate to you?
 In my past, obviously not much.  But I got sick of having to dumb it down.  So now I'm single.  LOL

7. What's the closest situation that you've had to dealing with an enemy?
LMAO - again - have you READ my blog????

8. What was the circumstance that led to your most recent utterance of aha!?
I never say "AHA!" That's so 80's.  I say "EUREKA!" or "GADZOOKS!"... Something with a little more pizazz....

9. Have you ever tried getting even?
Seriously?  Seriously.  Have you READ MY BLOG??????  LMAO
Kevin StartswithanFand rhymeswithdAY - MA State Police.....  He made my kid cry. 

Thanks so much for joining us again at Saturday: 9. As always, feel free to come back, see who has participated and comment on their posts. In fact sometimes, if you want to read & comment on everyone's responses, you might want to check back again tomorrow. But it is not a rule. We haven’t any rules here. Join us on next Saturday for another version of Saturday: 9, "Just A Silly Meme on a Saturday!" Enjoy your weekend! (248)

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

No One Else on Earth....

could ever hurt me... break my heart the way you doooo....

Wynonna.  That used to be one of my favorite songs.  Along with "Nothing Compares to You" by Sinead O'Connor.  Oh, oh!  And The Pretenders - there was one by them, too.  "I'll Stand By You".  Yup.  That was it.    This was the sound track to my life 16-17-18 years ago.  When I was young, in love, and thought that could conquer all.  Who knew... certainly not me. 

I heard "Noone Else on Earth" this morning.  A lot of memories came back - like me thinking that Kevin was the love of my life, that I couldn't imagine my life without him.  Now I look back and realize that while I may have loved him with just about everything *I* had?  He only loved himself.  He only cared about himself and his own instant gratification.  He's probably still the same, too - which makes me oh so happy that I didn't end up with him.  I'm so glad that I regained my sense of self-worth and self-respect.   Unlike Jeanne, who always looked at him as a "prize" to be won.  Ugh.  Prized pig, maybe. 
It's taken me a long time to come to the point where I know he wasn't the great love of my life - I just let him hurt me that much.  He still has the ability to hurt me - through my son.  I say my son, because he is mine.  Kevin has nothing to do with him - he can't claim any of the good that is Josh.  None of it - that's all me.  I blame his selfish traits on his Kevin.  LOL 
And I am a Mama Bear - and a couple of weeks ago?  He made my son cry.  That pisses me off.  That makes me mad.  That makes me want to reach out and hurt back.  Makes me want to shove it in his face that he's an asshole and that he walked away from a kid that *IS* the love of my life.  

At least I can share what pisses me off, and get it out here - rather than taking it out on a 15 year old kid that just wanted to hear his father's voice.    That's right.  Just run away, you chickenshit.  MA State Police car #165E.....

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Conjunction junction, what's your function?

Today we ripped off a blogger named Hui Lin from the blog Conversations with an Imaginary Audience. It's 200 questions, so we will do it in parts. Lots of parts. She does not state where she got it from. But this is someone who could not come up a separate screen name and a blog name. But, it was probably stolen there as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Take the time to comment on other player's posts. It's a great way to make new friends! Link back to us at Sunday Stealing!

181. What's the BEST rock band that you have seen live?

Well that's easy.  Bruce.  All Bruce, all the time. 

182. Could you image being in a situation where you would run from the police?

Only if my baby-daddy was chasing me.  he's the po-po.  And I just called him baby-daddy.  LOL

183. Have you ever been asked for an autograph?

I have seen them framed.  I'm kind of a big deal, you didn't know that?

184. What would you change about your living room?

The color.  It's shit brown right now.  And when I get a chance I'm going to paint it. 

185. Do you drink out of glass or plastic most of the time at home?

Whatever is closer.

186. Last hug?

what are we, 12?  Yesterday.  From your mom.

187. Have you ever had to make up your mind?

see #186

188. What is on top of your refrigerator?

dust bunnies, ant killer, egg cartons (empty), trivets - you know... "stuff"...

189. Did it work out for you in terms of kids? (Meaning how did it work out & are you happy. In other words, from “Have none, wanted none” to “8 kids & 3 grandkids)

I would have been happy with a houseload, I have 1.  I'm happy - but always wanted more.

190. Are you afraid of the dark?

Not with your Dad here to hold my hand..  No I'm not!

191. What if you had three wishes – what would you wish for?

A long life for me, my family & friends; enough money to do what I wanted without having to worry about the bills;  to be able to smell the ocean each day

192. Do you feel sad often?

Sometimes.  Depends on what I'm thinking about.

193. Have you ever been in lust for an extended period of time?

Seriously?  Have you seen "Magic Mike" yet?  That Channing Tatum can dance on my face any time.  oh.  Wait.  "real" lust?  Hah...  Maybe. 

194. Do you shower daily?

Unless I don't..

195. Have you ever prank called someone?

Is this the cocksucker residence?!??!  Anyone ever see Serial Mom?  LOL  Funnier than shit.  But the funniest was when they called back and I blamed it on my (non-existent) teenager. 

196. If you have a garage, is it cluttered?

It's only a one car.  No room for clutter.

197. You are about to die. What do you do with your worldly possessions?

Give them to those that care.

198. Tell us about the first time that you bought a car.

I'm channeling Ricardo Montalban here - "Vooooooooooolaaaaaaaaaare, ohhhhhhh ohhhhhhhh, Voooooolareeeeee whoa oh oh ohhhhhhhh"

199. What is your favorite type of music?

Anything but hard core rap.

200. What’s your family like? 

LMAO have you been READING my blog???  My *chosen* family is wonderful.  My cousins, aunts, uncles, etc. - wonderful.  My siblings and I?  We put the "fun" into dysfunction.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

And for now... back to our regularly scheduled programming..

Saturday 9: Whatever Gets You Thru the Night

1. What helps you get through the night?
Oh Jesus - can't I just put wisecrack answers to all of these?  LOL  But for this one?  Knowing that I do the best I can each day to be a good person, be good to those around me, and try and be understanding of the concept of walking a mile in someone else's shoes.  Except recently.  With certain people.  Because I've borrowed their shoes and they're damn tight - all that shit stuck in them.   I like my sandals much better - they're so much more freeing.
2. Do you ALWAYS keep an open mind?
I try to.  Do your pants always have an open fly?
3. Who is the wisest person you know? 
Buddha says some pretty cool shit.  Wise, too.  
4. Who is the strongest person you know?
Strength wise?  My cousin Blair is big.  And strong.  I'd say him.  And by big I mean freakishly tall - not rotund.  
Otherwise?  My friend Kim.  She kicked cancer's ass.  My friend Jody's son is kicking it too - he's the strongest kid I know..
5. How would we tell by your behavior if you are having a bad day?
Depends on what causes the bad day.  If it's my son's POS father - I think we all know what happens then.  If it's someone in my family?  Sometimes the same thing.  I have a tendency to vent.  Here.  On my blog.  Because it's mine.  Mine all mine.  
6. Does your ego sometimes get in your way?
What ego?  I'm fucking awesome.  Get that through your head. 
7. Do you believe in Zen? If yes, can it be mastered?
I just got back from sitting on the beach in one of the most beautiful places in the world.  I had so many zen moments my head is still spinning.  Just chill, and be.  That's zen.  
8. Do you believe you could teach someone, like your child, to be competitive?
No - I tried.  Dammit.  And he quit baseball.  Makes me nuts.  I love baseball.  Why can't he?
9. Do you believe home is not a place but rather a state of mind?
I think it's both.  When I think of home I think of the Boston area.  That will always be "home" to me - even if I have no physical *home* there.  But home is here in MI, too.  Because that's where my kid is.  And my friends, and my "adopted" family.  

Jesus.  I got deep on some of these.  Sorry.  

Ahhhhh secrets....

I thought this was another one worthy of reposting..  Again, another one for you JB :)

When you block people on facebook/twitter/etc. - stop and think why.  Why?  What are you so afraid of them finding out?  That you've been a badge bunny since forever?  That all you ever wanted was a cop?  Congratulations!  You got one!  What a stellar example of a man you've gotten yourself there, huh?  Such a role model for his kids.   Oh, wait?  They don't want to have much to do with him either?  Not a shock there.   And he gets along so well with his coworkers, too... 

Secrets have a way of creeping up on you, and when you least expect it - BAM!  smacking you right in the face.

I've always been an honest person.  Sometimes too honest.  And I've always told people that the only person you should really lie to is your mother, because mothers really don't need to know everything.  (Don't tell the boy this though, ok? lol)

I've never lied to my child as to who his father is.  He knows his name.  I have maybe omitted some pertinent information because he's not old enough to handle it - but the older he gets the more he is told.  Like now he knows he has 2 half-brothers and 2 half-sisters.  He also knows their names.  I see no reason to lie about this.  They're related.  I have owned up to my responsibilities and I am raising my child on my own.  His father, because he is pissed off at me (I know, right - after all these years?  Get over it - and yourself) refuses to have anything to do with the boy.  [*As an aside - I have NO clue what he was ever pissed off about originally, either.  Now, I'm sure I can pinpoint a couple of things.  This blog being one.  ]

He plays father of the year to the other 4.   Three found out a few years ago that they have another sister and have welcomed her into the family.  But they, on the other hand, know nothing about my son.  Two are in their 20's - one is even getting married this year.  They're more than old enough to know. [*The oldest was married almost a year ago, and I sent him a letter.  I'm sure his father explained it somehow, and made it look like I was the bad guy in all of it...]

If there were a secret like this in your family - would you want to know ?  Or would you rather find out from a curious 14-15 year old kid that friends you on Facebook?  Or a picture from someone's blog?

It's not the boy's place (or really, mine) to tell them that their father is an asshole.  It really should be on him, shouldn't it?  It's not my secret...

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Just for Jeanne....

So I know that you think that you "won"... because you live with him now.  Woohoo!!  You won.  You won a racist, bigoted, disgusting fat pig of a man that not only walked away from your child - and then miraculously appeared again - he walked away from another one - and you're OK with that - and even encourage it.  Do you WONDER why your daughter hates you?   Do you think that the lies will ever catch up to you?  Or do you really know what the truth is..

And did you really win?  Or was it by default?  I guess you'll never know.  But here are his words...

Kind of curious though - how come it took so long for you to be put on the deed?  How come you're not married yet?  Even if you are in the "best relationship of your life" as you put it?     You have a fucked up view of life if this is the best relationship you've ever been in. 

Now it's on.....

Sent June 23 to my son's sperm donor:
We just saw you on the highway. Josh would like to meet you. Just to say hello. We are here until tomorrow morning. Do the right thing Kevin. He just wants to meet you. This isn't about me or you it's about a kid that has nothing to do with our issues.

** My kid was crying in the back seat of the car.  Said he just wanted to meet his Dad, he didn't remember him, and that he'd never heard his voice.  Mind you - the child has written him a letter before, and it went ignored.  This from a man that walked away from him when he was a year old - so regardless of what he may tell people - he walked away from a kid he KNEW.   I explained that he was working and that we couldn't just show up - it wouldn't be fair, and that maybe he could write another letter and maybe he'd respond this time.   Not one negative thing about the asshole - because that's not for me to tell him. 

Sent June 26?  A check to me for his half of the copays.  No mention of the email.

Hurting me is one thing.  Hurting my kid?  Totally separate.  For those that read here often - I apologize, because it's going to get a bit ugly here over the next few days.  I need to work out some frustration.  And whoever is reading in Brockton?  You're going to get an eye full.

For Google's sake - if anyone is looking up Kevin Fay of the Mass State Police - I hope it shows up now.


Oh, and how about the card for the boy's Christening?